england pics

i have also reorganized my england pics... i mean, i am done editing them... i did most of the stuff on an old program tt was so tedious, but i managed to finish them all today. cant post them up tho... com's behaving wierd today.

...?

i think i mite be breaking up with my partner. it is all very wierd. i have an odd queasy feeling in my tummy. i want it, but i dont want it. but i cannot pretend to be nonchalant because i am not. it is all very odd. it is diffucult to think of our relationship being any other than what it is now... only thing is that what it is for me now is not what it is for my partner. which is all very odd.

goodbye.

this is just too sad. today i am loosing another internet friend. well, perhaps i'm being overly dramatic, but she's one of the people i know from my lists, and she's been.. well.. part of the list. and integral to the list. and she just sent a post saying she's leaving the list.

and that makes me feel very sad. not too long ago, another net friend walked out on a list. i had a dream of her last night. i was emailing her to ask why she left, and could she not come back, because we miss her... and because *i* miss her. its very sad when people who mean something to you walk out of your life.

but my current friend.. *sigh*. i sent her a personal email asking why and all. i dunno. i hate it. i hate it so much. i hate loosing people. i've never met her real life, but i really dont want to see her go. it would be so wierd without her around... so sad. *sob* i hate it when people leave. my life sucks.

sydney aquarium pics

hey y'all... here are some pictures i took while i was in Sydney in december... yeah, i know, that was a looooong time ago, but i only just got down to the photoediting... my digi is a really cheapo one, so the picture quality kinda sucks, but they're nice pics anyway. here are some of my favs.


Underwater Fantasy


i love this one... it looks so mysterious... i WISH i had a good digi... lookat it... it's surreal, with the jagged mountains in the distance. it would make a great book cover if it were well done. (ie with high resolution and with a good photo editor. i'm just a sub-novice..)



Shark Tank-- A Misty Wonderland.


Yay. i managed to turn complete disaster into this! *dances around*
The picture was really screwed when i took it. it was completely dark, completey out of focus, and hopelessly blur. and someone was standing in the way and would not go away. i was about to throw it out, but then i thought i might salvage it using all those editing effects. i cropped out the black off, blurred the background so that the tank and the walls kinda merged. then i did a focal glow effect, a cenral soft focus and a focal black/white thing so only the foreground is in colour. =D


The Great Barier Reef


yup... this one speaks for itself. its the GBR exhibit at the sydney aquarium. this is the whole pic...

The Great Barrier Reef-- soft focus


and this one above is the same photo in soft focus. i wish i could say that i took them all seperately, but then i'll be lying through my teeth. =D

Reef Fish


This is one of my favs. they're soooo cuuuuuute!!!! hehe. just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming...


alright, that's all the pictures for now. i'm still working out how to use the programs and stuff. *grinz*

actully the way i feel now is very much like the Misha Omar song... Pulangkan. and it's a great theme song for Heartbound too... not sure about the lyrics, gotta check it out. but the feel and the sound fitting habis. giler nye fitting. kenape aku ni aleh-leh bual bahasa melayu ni? gaknye bab aku cakap pasal 'pulangkan' tak? haiz...

blah. but it'll make a good theme song for elrohir/ boromir.

yay!

my newest fickie is finished! i'm DONE with heartbound! hehe. yaaaaay! it feels so good to be DONE with a SERIES!!! it's only happened with possibly 3 other fics before-- life, kiss me quickly, and THIS!! heee... i hardly ever finish fics... i usually tire of them halfway. which is a baaaaaaaaaaaaaad habit.

i'm like, yeah, i have a sequel planned, but this is pretty okay too. i'm onna Boromir/ Erohir kick at the moment, but my Resident Elf is getting unhappy about the lack of attention.

actually, the whole REASON i picked up B/E was cos i was getting mightily tired of haldir. i mean, haldy's cool and all, but it gets stale after awhile... esp after living with him for about 2 years... haldir/ elrond get a bit um... melodramatic. and i wanted a MAN! muahahaha!!! and a TWIN!!! muAhAhAAAA!!!!

in other news, my keyboard's spoilt. i cant type the letter 'l' so i have to copy and paste it everytime i need the letter. and the key beside it is out too... the semi-colen? (howtospellit?)

in OTHER news, elaine emailed me today and i so do not know what to think. you'd think the expert in doomed romances would at least learn what NOT to do from her characters... *sigh*. i completed heartbound today, but when i reread it i was so shocked at how incredibly DARK it was... like i know my nick's "Dark Malignity" but i didnt intend anything THIS dark or malignant... this ending is DARK man. i would weep, but i used up all my tears planning the chapter. =S